Goodbye - Lady X

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Hello everyone,
There are many ways one can start this kind of announcement of letter. There are also MANY words that I want to put into this and many thoughts but only so much can be said in such a short and swift time.
Starting with the situation at hand, I have stepped down from Director and my characters have fled from the server, quite literally fled due to the backstories of them all.

The new Director is Chroma and your new Staff Manager is Vector. It was a hard decision between the two so indefinitely they both now make sure that the foundation I have laid is used and the server carried on in the image of what they see best. If changes are to take place it most likely will be for the better, not the worst. I hope and pray honestly that those specific people that have been telling me 3 months ago, that I should stay and drag out time to possibly not leave and saying i’ve been a good director and so forth, can accept and respect my decision. I trained my staff in the image of an informal family. You are to stay connected, stay communicated and work together to make sure the longest lasting LimitLess RP server continues to be as such.

There is so much more the players and the staff can do, I hope that I have instilled enough into them that they can continue under the same guidance as always. I am watching from afar, you may have new councils but honestly nothing changed, I am only absent,  have not spoiled any of you staff members, so I expect no bad behavior when Mother is away (since half if not all of you call me mom -_- )

I will seriously miss being your director, one of the staff and someone MY staff can look up to. I hope I have done enough in my time, that you have learned and have grown to make me proud. This team is exactly that, a team, you work for the players of our server, not for yourselves, not for anyone else. You work towards one goal, a community or a place that despite the drama and so, we all love being here.  
When I first joined I saw potential, to move forward and work towards a greater server. When I received Director, despite the trash talks and so forth I kept it, we worked on it, we created something great. We all created what it is today and I am NOT ashamed of it. I don’t care who ridicules it, we, all of us, have created something we are proud of. I, if no one else, will always stand by the fact that this has been one of the best years, meeting some of the best people and working with some talented people, creating Bounty Hunter Roleplay. I am proud of it and the people within.  

To the players:
Addressing those new and old, this server has gone through  alot and many of you new folks don’t know me. I am Lady Xionix, I was Doctor Guinevere and Xionix Valentareen. I ran Roseblood and trained the medical personnel. That is literally all I have and although small in comparison to some people, I feel accomplished in my duties. I was happy with what I have created for myself, I was happy serving the playerbase, I was happy making sure that it was fair for all. I guided a staff team and, with each others help, we tried our best, while being players ourselves, to make sure this server lives for more than 4 months.

I want everyone to understand something, players in general have a responsibility to the server, not just the staff position.  You all must take care of each other, there must be someone to step up and be the bigger guy in childish arguments. You must help one another out of character and even in character when the time calls for it. There is a level of family when we create bonds in servers like these, we must learn to cherish them always, keep the family together. Now I know I am probably asking too much of some people, but I know there are few that can see this light and hopefully agree enough to create a chain.
I love every single player that I have come across, I loved rping,talking, listening and to those that think they have gone unnoticed you have not, no matter how annoying you may believe you are. I have never disliked or hated someone for an opinion or an expression. We are all human, we all act differently such is life and I blame not a single soul for their actions, I truly do not.

 Now I really should not do this part but I’ll adhere to “culture” If your name is not here I simply forgot to add it, there are many names,


Fuze: You know very well what I think of you but to the public, you made a promise that you are going to stay no matter the issue no matter the problem, and try to stay by me through everything, that promise became a lot more than just a promise, it became something I could live on while I was director. You were there through it all, you fought for me, you stood by me and you believed in this server. You are among some of the best people this time in this server could have brought me.

Tech: None of you may know him other than a community owner. This man has been the very reason I got director, the very reason I stayed past a month to take up that responsibility and in general a really nice person. I am happy to call you friend. There lots to say so you’ll hear most of it in steam :P

 Overdrive: I call you my little brother, you were one of the best supporters among the lot. No matter my decision, no matter how silly or out of place I may get, you stay by me and I have known you for way too long to even mention. You are among one of the best people I can ask for in my life and I cherish you as a friend. Thank you for coming here and I hope you stay. 

Vector: Brave and Mighty and so many other words that can describe you. Loyal and strong, you planted yourself into the server and even through disputes between us and the staff, drama and anything that can drive a lot of people away that including someone coming out of nowhere and becoming director, you stayed, you fought and you are winning this battle against time. I have known you for a WHILE and in all this time no matter how edgy this may sound you are the dark knight, you bring justice and you will not flee from any fight, you fight to the death. Something I admire. Good luck to you.  

Chrome: Chroma you were and are a really nice person, you also supported me even though I came out of nowhere and took over after Cross. Another loyal staff who never stepped out, stood by us and guided us with all your talents and intelligence. I am happy to have you once apart of the team. You have gifted me with that one friend I can rely on always, you will never be forgotten. 

Gray: My son.. My actual son. When you joined this server I watched you grow from this scared little new blood to a powerful, influential leader of Armacham. I never watched anyone grow and be more proud than I am of you. I know Vector and the others from old servers, I have seen their maturity but you are an outsider, you were someone new to me and it really shows how loyal and experienced you are. You have made it this far, I hope you continue to grow.  

Monty: Now don’t be offended by any of this but innocent.. Young Monty. Level headed and very opinionated. You just like many others were a very good staff. It didn’t matter who it was, what it was, you made sure that it was either approved or correct. You did your job a lot better than many of the staff. Your call of the trainee, “WE HAVE A TRAINEE” fit you so well, you were the most in depth trainer we had, you were loyal to the end and I am sorry to see you go. I guess we all know when our time to go arrives, for whatever the reasons. I wish you good luck wherever you may go and do remember, no matter what anyone says about you, you were a great staff and in the future a great director to some server or a leadership position.

 Dare: Dare… I must say when I first heard of you the only word running through my mind because of everyone else’s words is “special snowflake”. You came around to prove those wrong. No matter how much a of a meme and annoying you could have gotten, you have been an impact on my time here. Another outsider among my original group that I really cherished in friendship. You may have left and you have returned somewhat, but you hold a special place in my memory  

Spyro: There is many things I can say about you but no words really add up. You were a really good staff and an even better friend. We saw not many times eye to eye but you never backed down on making sure I know that there are more opinions, or thoughts or even outcomes of a situation in which you helped. I know you will help keep this server running, I wish you luck.

 Octavion: There are many people who have been given second chances and many of them tend to mess it up, you were given a 100% chance to come back, be on the constant watch for behavior and so forth. You have passed enough of the tests to make it as far as a gamemaster and maybe one day staff. I will not deny you have issues in attitude but nothing you have done has gone unnoticed. You are a good gamemaster, a good player, no matter your issues you have helped in the success of the server so thank you.  

Blisk: I have known you for a while as well and I have watched you too go from a little hunter, a new blood trooper to someone who today I can be proud of. I can repeat the same thing over and over for everyone but it is true all the same, there are times with you that I cannot recreate with anyone else and I think you for those.

 KX: The man the myth the legend, Teapot you have shown me the not serious side of being a staff and player and although I have not followed your footsteps, but I never have disliked the way you carried yourself in terms of staff and being a player. You have been with this server for a very long time and onto this day you remain with it, you try to come back as always, you carry on the legacy from the past to now. I wish you the best of luck with returning if you can and if you do, may you continue to help keep this server alive. 

Parkins: I didn’t know you very well but I came to this server and met you hear, I may say I even robbed you of a position that you much very well deserved, I don’t apologise for much but for that I do. If anyone deserved this position of director it was you. I must congratulate though on, you may not have gotten director but you made it further than that. You can now be a lot more helpful, making sure the community lives and continues, being unbiased and giving correct judgement when it is called for.  

Xaze: When you joined this team, I did not know you at all, I only knew you have been here for a while and applied, got the position and now you are working to make the server a better place. I thank you for all the times you have impacted me and the server. You are a gamemaster one of the good ones, there are not many people who get the “title” of being good at their job, so there you go.  

Cross: I should have left you for last but time came where I needed to write or say something. There is a lot of bad blood between us, misunderstandings, smoke and wildfire that can burn down Rome. I do not hate or dislike you, I do not stand for whatever misconstrued information was thrown around to create this bad blood. When I first joined here I will admit, you of all the others that I did not know, I would have wanted to befriended. You had a unique character backline, something I did not see in many. Times changed and things happened to where you were forced to leave, and sometimes I look back at those times thinking,, what if I had just left it alone and not taken the position or tried one step harder to make sure you did not leave, what would be the outcomes, what would the server be today? As a director you were a different breed of high staff.I did not expect certain things and they honestly did not bode well with me like the decision making processes and such. In any case you did as much you knew how to, you took the shot at the spot and ran with it as far as you can throw it, in that you accomplished something, you brought this server as far as you wanted or could. I thank you for creating something like this with Tech, this bad blood between us means nothing to me, I can grow up and get over it.Even though you may never see this I still need to say something. 

Alucard: ….. Saying anything about you is like throwing myself in a grave. I came here and met you and it added a bad taste to my day. You have been the bane to the existence of our server and my reputation, however I really do not care about words because I proved you wrong, long enough to have the server go on further than you expected it to go. My honest opinion of your personality from the treatment I received from you is nothing good in terms of words. Being a complete and utter jackass seemed to be your forte but quite honestly, you did something, you showed me I can work harder and better, help the team and make a server that just shows you up. Some people are in our lives as a blessing or a lesson, you were a lesson and boy did it strike me good. I built up a stronger wall, I created better defenses and I armed myself enough to fight a war. Your childish little hissyfits really showed me a new side of the world and people I can come across. I hope one day you can change your attitude. That is all I hope for you even though you will not read this.   

 Fragger: Now I am gonna be straight and to the point, in my eyes you are two faced but then again a lot of people because they refuse to say anything to my face. However you did help this server, you put a lot down in your time and for that I say thank you, I did and do appreciate the foundations you have laid, the things you have done and the time you have spent. Even though I have zero idea how a server can come between old friends it doesn’t fully bother me. There is not much I can honestly say without triggering myself or you so in all honesty, thank you. You were a good friend, a great debater but there are always going to be those flaws that stand way more strong than our own voices. In this I hope you carry on okay.  

Sparks: Dadmiral.. One of the people I have considered my BEST FRIEND for a long ass time, until the same issue occurred or seemingly did, a server coming between old friends. I have no bad blood with you, not anymore, I always have simply loved you and you were a great friend and wonderful staff. You had stood by me through a lot and even though in some cases you too seemed “backstabby” this is not true and I am honestly happy. Yes I can only speak of my own experiences so the other point of view that others may see is not within reaching distance. In any case I do miss you around.  

Donut: SEAN!! Donut you are one of the kindest souls. You have been the one person that in times of trouble and hot water I can always just listen to you or talk to you and be one with peace again. You have infected this server with your fun and innocent manner, you have been the happy dweller and I am glad you joined the staff team.

 Raven: You are newly joined to the server and our team and have already began to change and mend the server towards a better future. I do not know you enough besides you are by definition my kettle. You have a strong voice and you stand strong on opinions, you can be hot headed but straight forward at the same time. I was and am happy that you joined the team when you did and in this time of change I hope you stick by it, the same way I did. Throughout all the ash and smoke, the fire will breed something good. 

Erik: Mecha, you also are a recent addition to the team and I say welcome, congratulations and goodbye. The simple  words of the cycle of life. You have just like all others put in that extra step, added the extra tolerance and done the deed of many. I go as far to say you signed your soul to the devil when you applied for staff, but boy so did I. Today and from this day on I hope, what I have trained you to do remains instilled and that you will continue to use it. You will continue to thrive and carry forth this server into the new year.  

Rancor: A newblood that is ripe among the flock, Uncle Olly,,, yes I said it, you are the more relaxed staff member, one who is new and not ready to be throw  into the world of chaos yet, you still are dealing with the simple weird little factors among the server. In any case you have my blessings, I know you will be a good staff as the days go by. 

Burning: Burning you are still a moderator, you are still just like others, new and not exposed to the extremities, you will learn and you will become a really good staff. You are patient, kind, considerate and everything good this staff team needs. You are a good asset and an even better friend. Good luck to you.  

(Requests)
Phantom: Phantom I have known you the longest out of everyone, although I may not have talked or played with you much before hand we still tolerated each other. You have been I would say the funniest to watch one out of everyone to watch grow up, you have a good heart and despite your behaviour at times your head is in the right place. You have been apart of a lot of things when it comes to either issues or tissues with me and I thank you for standing by me near most of them. You try to be the outsider but it is not your best job. You may think you are the most annoying person on the planet for me or the most abused by us but you are not , you have some very hidden and beautiful qualities for a human being and one of them is being caring and careful. Everyone's opinion has mattered to me and so does yours, I have listened to you always, nothing you have said has gone unnoticed. Thank you for being there. <3

In the end if your name is not here it is because I either forgot or I wrote too much. There are many people who I wanna put down, players included but I can only say so much without becoming 100% repetitive. Know that if I ever spoke to you, I remember you and I know about you, so if you wanna hear what I would say about you in this format, just comment your name. 
Finally.. This is goodbye. No tears, no sadness, no regrets. I have done as much as I can… now someone else can take the reigns. I wish this server the best, I always do. If you manage to read all of this...props to you.

Hope you won’t forget me

Lady Xionix. 
 


 

Screw it, everyone is doing a paragraph so I might as well put in my 2 cents and shit. Also please add me that would be nice.

Where to begin? At first I never knew who you were prior to becoming manager and to be honest the changes you made and the work you did probably destabilized my fantasies of my "golden age" as you could call it. I never accepted how things would never go back to the way they were so I reacted in a hostile manner with a volatile reaction when things turned out the way I didn't think they would which was.......Dumb. So I guess I'm sorry for that and also grateful for you being possibly the only one who actually gave me a chance, I joined again recently and it was a fucking absolute shitshow because people really do hate me. Thanks for that and if it helps I kinda hold you at the level of Parkin considering he is probably one of the other only guys who doesn't treat me like shit so I give both of you a certain gratitude and respect I never give most. I hope you enjoyed your stay albeit limited and probably stressful as it was. So good luck and godspeed.

Press F To Pay Respects,
Anatoli That One PKed Guy

I know that feeling well
*Tips hat solemnly to the leaving train*
So, this is where we leave off? Always knew this day would come, something I prepared for but never quite saw when on the horizion. Thank you for all you've done, good luck, and best wishes. May this resignation bring you what you always wanted.
"We'll meet again, Don't know where, Don't know when, But I know we'll meet again some sunny day."
PS: Thought you always knew he held that soul in his idle hands

-Sincerly,
               Erik

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God Of Thunder, Bringer of Death, Servant of Justice.
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Kev'ren Gre'ta: Alive
Sith Acolyte: *Ke'gyce*: Persona of Kev'ren


 
I contemplated writing this, but fuck it, what do I have to lose? 

Lady, what I have done I don't know if it can be forgiven. I was an asshole, a dick, and a shit friend to a lot of you near the end of my time. I'm not going to cherry coat this by saying we were perfect, that we never had issues, because that isn't true. So I just want to clarify some things. First, was I two-faced? Yeah in some ways I was, I'm not going to deny that. But then again who the hell isn't? I was pissed, I was disappointed in myself, and so much more. I wanted somewhere to vent, and somewhere to release the bullshit I had been dealing with for so long, some of the things I said were and weren't true, but many of what I said about our friendship was false, you didn't treat me like shit on purpose, you didn't lie to me. For that I'm sorry, I'm sorry for being two faced. Second, I wouldn't say the server came down between us, at the time of me being S.A on the server I felt stressed, my anxiety was worsening, and my depression was at a horrible state, before the whole situation of having Sapphire taken away, etc I was planning on leaving anyways. I needed time alone and to collect myself. The reason I lashed out like I did was because the whole situation was the final straw on the camels back, I felt attacked and vulnerable (Even if that wasn't true). None the less when I returned "recently" after I had been lied to, being forced to go through some bullshit PK thing while having a migraine (It lasted two fucking hours), and then getting to the point of just saying fuck it, I had been done with everything. I wrote the document to cause a reaction, I'm not going to deny that. I wanted something that could show you how I was feeling. It's obvious that it didn't work to the extent that I wanted it to (It may have pissed some people off...), but it allowed me to finally have some closure, to simply "stick it to the man". Was it a dick move? Of course, would I change it? Unlikely, as much as I feel sorry, I enjoyed the reaction from a certain few people... Anyways, you can see this as me simply rewriting my story, or as someone begging for attention, but believe me or not, I simply want closure. The shit between us is just plain stupid, and I agree a server shouldn't have split us, it's stupid that it did. We've known each other for three plus years. I simply want this to end or hell event to begin on a new light. I started more then I should've between us, and for that I am sorry. Take this apology or leave it, (I know I've given many empty apologies in the past). This choice is yours. Good luck Lady, stay safe.

Sincerely
~Fragger
P.S If you ever want to talk, just ask. A simple paragraph can not express how sorry I am, if you want clarification just ask. (I'm not good at these kinda things)

bibi lediiiii

I never really knew you too well or talked to you much, but I know despite a few clashing opinions of ours that you were trying to work for the good of the server, and you did do a lot of good. I'll miss ya just like everyone else.

~ Varakor, the second coming of salt.

May as well also write a little bit of paragraph.

Lady, I've known for over one year now, and that's enough to realise how much of an influence you have been in my life. I have been called a copycat because seemingly I take up your attitudes, your vocabulary etc etc. I'm not afraid to say that I do indeed do that, but that's because that you are my positive role model. Your attitudes, your will, your strengths are things that I aspire to possess and use for my own personal problems or situations. You have been my mentor, my guidance.... but most importantly, you are one of my best friends. Despite you leaving, you know and I know that I will still come to you for advice at any given time, and that's because you listen and you give it to me in the bluntest form... allowing me to see what is right. I have grown up so much around you, and I want to thank you for steering me away from a path that I personally know would've been all-time low. You understood my mental issues, and were glad to help with with said issues along the way, and you never ever once judged me for being different. You in fact, cherished my difference, and that's how I grew into loving you so so so so so much, as your little brother. I know that our friendship sure as hell isn't over, but I just want to say that you have indeed improved my staffing skills for the better, maybe for the worse considering I can be TOO much of a copycat. Regardless, thank you so much for taking time to train me, bring me up from the ashes, and rebuild myself as a new improved person. Becoming a young adult hasn't been easy, but I can say that you being my friend has indeed made it somewhat easier. No matter where you go in your careers, I hope that we can remain friends, hopefully forever :P

"Stones taught me to fly, love taught me to lie, life taught me to die, so it's not hard to fall when you float like a cannonball"
That above quote certainly speaks to me about how I've now realised that life really isn't all that amazing, but people are around us to pick us up. As much of an emotional train wreck I really am, seriously thank you for sticking by me and putting up with my shit, including my annoying outbursts, my rants etc etc. Your friendship is one in a lifetime, and I couldn't be more grateful for you experiencing said friendship with someone like myself

Best wishes for future endevours (even though I'll probably be around for those :D)
~Overdrive (A.K.A Kyle) - Your little brother :)

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Lowkey just found this, goes to show how observant I am.
#TimeToDropMyThoughts
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Lady,

It's hard to start off a paragraph when it comes to a goodbye to you leaving this community, as honestly, there are no proper ways to describe the feelings and emotions of your exit.  However, we all must start from somewhere, thus begins my little goodbye for you.  

You have always been a very kind individual to everyone (excluding the ones who were ass hats to you or other members of staff).  You always would bring a smile to my face when you join the channel in which I happen to be residing in, and you are an absolutely amazing person when it comes to speaking with.  Your work on this server saved it from total destruction by the hand of Lord Cross and his ruthless dictatorship.  You created a server in which people have a say in, where people want to make it a better place, not just some cash grab for the high staff team.  You let people create systems which help facilitate intense role plays between people, systems of trade, and allowing for a new age of the economy to be found rather than the constantly inflating one previously in place.  I can look at you with a straight face and say that the majority of things you did for this server were for the better in the short term and long term.  Of course, there were a few things you did that I wouldn't necessarily agree with, however that sometimes has to be the case in a good staff team, as well as friendship.  I fully expect Vector and I to get along great when it comes to running this server, yet I plan on there were times in which we simply don't agree on a certain topic, it's just the way servers are.  

On a different note, I am happy to say that we are friends.  You are an amazing person to both talk too, play with, and laugh with.  I know you and I will still be talking, (You can't get rid of me that easily :3), as well as gaming with each other, though I can still tell you this much: You will be missed.  

With your decision on giving me director, I will do everything in my power to keep this server updated and running at peak capacity, doing my best to prevent the server from declining. 

Tell me what the weather is like outside of Garry's Mod, yeah?
Love yah,
-Chroma.

P.S. /me gives a bear hug :3
When you aren't mentioned in the post... Feels bad
"Octavion .... Good gamemaster" yeah ok if you say so

I feel left out, pls add me Lady
Now let's start by Wishing you a Merry Christmas and a happy new Year, I hope that you had a blast in your family but i would also like to wish you Health and Happiness and success(Of course). We've Both Traveled far and i like to think that we did it as friends, We had our share of bumpy roads but in the end we've come out stronger. It is with a saddened heart that i bid you farewell, It has been a pleasure working with you and for you.

Your Favorite Magic Mike Welder, Julien Bourgeois Aka Spyro.

k.












Kidding ill miss lady <3

Lady Xionix said previously:

Parkins: I didn’t know you very well but I came to this server and met you hear, I may say I even robbed you of a position that you much very well deserved, I don’t apologise for much but for that I do. If anyone deserved this position of director it was you. I must congratulate though on, you may not have gotten director but you made it further than that. You can now be a lot more helpful, making sure the community lives and continues, being unbiased and giving correct judgement when it is called for.  
 

I don't hold it against you as I saw that you were a good staff and had some good ideas before you got Server Director. I personally, am glad that you were chosen rather then me, yes, I was salty for a while as being one of the oldest staff members dating back to Tech and Tucker running the server, but, you have made the server into so much more then what I could have hoped to do. It's a shame to see you go, you will be missed. BHRP has truly, lost one of the best.

Parkin Shi'mir [Zabrak Mando] (Alive) *Simi-retired*
Jayla York [AI/Snyth] (Online) *Main character*

I do have more chars, but I don't really use them.
Retired Super-Admin.
Oldest blood.
(Not even kidding though. I am the oldest player still playing.)
Screw it if you don't put me in that's fine, maybe some things are better left unsaid.
Goodbye and I hope life treats you better than this cruel mistress of a server. I know I'll be happy to be rid of her.

Neighbor Vadim said previously:

Screw it if you don't put me in that's fine, maybe some things are better left unsaid.
Goodbye and I hope life treats you better than this cruel mistress of a server. I know I'll be happy to be rid of her.

If you wanted to be included, you request it e_e . I know too many players to make one for them all. 

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